Intentions
and Actions 3
In
the last post I mentioned anger being painful. I have heard it said
that anger comes from fear and it seems to be true to me. If someone
pulls a gun on me, I get angry; fight or flight. That is very simple.
What about the times I get angry when there is no physical danger to
me. Here again I find that the ego-centric reality that I have
created for myself is usually if not always the basis for the fear
that I have turned into anger.
There
are many ways of expressing anger. Of course getting mad and verbally
or physically fighting is one way. Another is to sulk or pout. I have
seen people cry when angered. Mentally plotting revenge is a way of
hiding the anger while trying to pacify it. There are people who have
so much anger and resentment from personal hurt stored inside that
trying to feel good about themselves they try to destroy others self
worth. I have dubbed them vampire egos; they suck the life vitality
from someone close to them. Being hurt is actually a form of being
angry. Surely there are many other ways of expressing anger.
Here,
again, I am not an expert, but it seems to me that we have three
basic instincts. They are to pass on our genes (reproduce), survival,
and gregariousness. Gregariousness may be part of the reproductive
instinct and survival. All my actions in life are stimulated from my instincts. If
I put too much emphasis on any aspect of my instincts then I am
always guarding myself from the possibility of losing something I have, think I have, think I deserve, etc. Included in that would be
my social position. Any group of humans has a pecking order. I can
feel my social position threatened through material things including
the possibility of reproducing, or just words; gossip etc. By way of
“too much emphasis” I will be constantly looking at how other
people and there acts make me look, feel, what they are doing for me.
In other words I am self-centered, ego-centric, so I miss what is
really going on around me. I have no humility. I will naturally cause
pain without realizing ( noticing) what I am doing. Without
consciously realizing it I am doing evil things, because I will not
or am incapable of seeing my egocentricity. Deep inside my mind I may
know that some of what I am doing is not right; then I live with my
pain and will be more likely hurt some else. The reality I have
created and live in, is that of a small child before being taught.
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